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She was so...
Unnatural.
I watched her hair break off in clumps,
while she fell to her plastic knees.
She held onto her strands
left handed,
she softly touched it to her face.
I never knew a hurricane could break,
that's what she was,
a hurricane of a woman.
I stood over her,
a building in her eyes,
and buried her with songs.
She screamed at the top of her lungs,
but the sounds were muffled
by the own capabilities of her throat.
I heard the blood break through,
like a dammed up river,
and explode through her eyes.
When we met,
her eyes were pastel blue,
gorgeous with fear,
ripe with any chance of love.
She would press her lips against windows,
to heal the cracks within the skin.
She told me the cold felt good
in contrast to the pain.
I always noticed her teeth
because they were always biting her cheeks
and her cheeks were already so sunken in,
that the pull of her skin
made her look edgy, like a model.
In the morning,
she'd break glass around the house,
and while I'd sweep,
She'd walk across the pile of broken edges
In her bathrobe, holding a cup of coffee,
her blonde hair,
messy, and piled upon the crown of her head.
I could hear the glass piercing her skin,
breaking through the many layers of her.
She'd throw her head back,
and I could hear her breathing,
her smile would sharpen around the edges,
and under her breath she'd say her own name.
She was turned on by her demise.
I recall a moment,
when she wasn't so strange,
but still stranger than me.
She collapsed her legs at the top of a hill,
dressed in white,
with dirt in her fingernails,
with grass pressed firmly into her skin.
Holding onto a daffodil,
Keeping her eyes North,
She spoke quitely,
Yet I couldn't help but feel the ground shake with every word.
I asked her why she would bother praying now.
After all the self loathing,
self mutilation, and hate.
Her organic eyes,
the only thing still remaining pure
on her tired, ruined face.
Locked onto mine,
and for a moment,
I saw God.
And he was just as starved,
just as bitter,
just as pain seeking,
just as angry as her.